I get by with a little help from my friends...

Exciting news!

2008-06-06T08:48:00.000-07:00

Guess whose going to Israel next summer???

ME!

It has been forever.

2008-06-03T21:33:00.001-07:00

Now that its summer... blogging is not something I want to do anymore. Just beacuse there is so much to do!!! Its only June and my summer already has been amazing!!! I laughed so much, done crazy things, cried alot, and am getting a pretty nice tan! One day maybe i'll look like my sister....

-Mary Catherine has her baby soooo soon!!!! I can't wait-

-Messiah conference (the greatest week of my life) is coming up in less then a month OMG-

-I got a job at harris teeter and I LOVE IT!!!-

-I miss dance....-

Tomorrow...

2008-05-11T20:56:00.000-07:00

I have to get a new license cuz I lost mine.
Then work for Harris teeter til 2.
Then start the craziest week of my life (Tech week.)
then production is only 3 days after that.

Oh. My. Goodness.

2 more weeks...

2008-05-05T20:26:00.000-07:00

.. til the big day!
This dance year has flown by... so has the new year!!! can you believe its MAY already??? I feel like it was yesterday that I was in Kansas City welcoming the new year with Jason Upton singing at the Onething conference. I guess everything in life flys by... I mean I still cant get over that I am 18!!! people get married when there 18.... so crazy.

ANYWAYS back to production. I can't wait. I love everything about it. The crazyness of backstage, the rush of performing onstage, the little things that go wrong... but everything always ending up okay. I feel so much more involved this year then last year too. I am so so so proud of all of kids for working so hard on there dances. It really is going to be an amazing show!!!

Pain

2008-05-01T18:27:00.000-07:00

I am in SO much pain right now.
I was trying to be a good GAFA employee and put up those summer dance class signs OUTSIDE the city limits so GAFA wouldnt get fined. WELL idk if you guys knew this about me... but I tend to make decisions before I really think about them. (I'm actually really good at thinking before I speak but absoutely TERRIBLE about thinking before doing.)
Anyways.
SO I'm driving down Market St (at 8:45 at night) and I see it... the perfect spot for a sign... which I KNEW was outside the city limits. I pull off down this semi-driveway road thing, tell my sister I'll brb, grab the sign, and jump out of my car.
The second I did I knew something didnt feel right with my feet. Does that stop me??? of course not! I go running toward the end of the road... meanwhile my feet are becoming soooo much more in pain. Since Its dark, I can't see the cause of the pain. As i'm pushing the sign into the ground and tears are forming in my eyes, I realize where my pain is from.... I AM IN A FIELD OF CACTUSES.... AND I AM BAREFOOT!!!!
(You can all take a second and call me an idiot in your head cuz that what I did at that moment. )
I run back to my car (through what I now know are the devils plant... AKA cactuses) and jump back into my car. When I look at my feet they are COVERED in cactus prickly things (no idea what they are called.) I picked out enough of them so I could drive home but still in alot of pain.
NOW I knew if my parents knew about my little run through the cactus feild at 8:45 at night theyd be pretty mad at my stupidity. SO I had to walk into my house like nothing was wrong, then go to my room and spend the next 30 mins picking out cactus prickly things.

And I cannot believe I just blogged about this.

Rachel vs Reagan

2008-04-27T19:48:00.000-07:00

I hope everyone is enjoying the "Rachel vs Reagan" vid on P.Matty and Pastoer Abbs blogs.

My Favorite Psalm.

2008-04-21T19:50:00.000-07:00

Psalm 143

O LORD, hear my prayer,
listen to my cry for mercy;
in your faithfulness and righteousness
come to my relief.
Do not bring your servant into judgment,
for no one living is righteous before you.
The enemy pursues me,
he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in darkness
like those long dead.
So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed.
I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.
I spread out my hands to you;
my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.
Answer me quickly, O LORD;
my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me
or I will be like those who go down to the pit.
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I lift up my soul.
Rescue me from my enemies, O LORD,
for I hide myself in you.
Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God;
may your good Spirit
lead me on level ground.
For your name's sake, O LORD, preserve my life;
in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble.
In your unfailing love, silence my enemies;
destroy all my foes,
for I am your servant.

This is has been my favorite Psalm forever. But I have never really noticed what the number was to it... 1-4-3.
These 2 people who I was friends with use to date. They use to always say "143" to eachother and it would drive all of my friends and I crazy. It meant I love you because "I" is a 1 letter word. "LOVE" is a 4 letter word. and "YOU" is a 3 letter word. 143. get it?
They got it from a movie and I always thought it was cute.I was jealous because I wanted someone to say "143" to myself. Well I just noticed literally about 10mins ago that my favorite Psalm for the past 4 years or so is numbered 143.
I am lucky enough to be able to say that I have a "143" Psalm to share with the GREATEST person in my Life... Yeshua HaMashiach... Jesus the Messiah :-)

Isn't that so cool?

2008-04-17T20:08:00.000-07:00

Does everyone see the 5 side of the dice????
WELL hiphop we had a disagreement on dice...and what the 5 looked like. I promised I would blog about it cuzzzzz it was just straight up ridiculous.

ANYWAYS went to the beach today and it was amazing.
Also danced at city stage tonight and it was so much fun. I love it there.

I also look like I have leprosy. I am peeling so so so bad from my sunburn.

My first Ultrasound

2008-04-15T19:29:00.000-07:00

(I like to start my blogs out with some pretty rad pictures!)

Tomorrow morning i get to go to my FIRST ultrasound with marycatherine and ben! I'm so excited about it!!! I still can't believe that my best friend is pregnant... I think I tell her that at least once a day. Joel (what shes naming her baby) is going to be nine and i'm gonna be like "dude. you have a nine year old kid."
Anyways, when a best friend gets pregnant, you start thinking alot about having kids of your own. On almost everyday of the week I want to have 5 kids. Only on tuesdays does that change. I teach Beg. Tap/Jazz at the greatest dance school in Wilmington... (probably the world, but i'll wait a few years before I actually admit that)... and i'm telling you some of those kids make me want to go get my tubes tied right now. And i'm only joking. I love all of those kids so so so much. But I wonder... if i can hardly handle them for an hour and 15 minutes... could I handle having 5 kids 24/7?
We have to also take into consideration the fact that I am only 18. I wont be having any kids for awhile... I really think with a few more years under my belt, i could totally take on the task of raising 5 of the coolest kids america will ever met!
Now my job is finding a guy that actually wants 5 kids. good luck to me!

(when I started writing this I totally meant for it to be strictly about MC's ultrasound. How in the world did I get here...)

...

2008-04-13T18:40:00.000-07:00

"...to have been loved so deeply. even though the person who loved us is gone, will give us some protection forever."

"...humans do have a knack of choosing precisely those things that are worst for them."

"Fear of a name increases fear of the thing itself."

"The truth... it is a beautiful and terrible thing, and should therfore be treated with great caution."

First Beach day of the New Year!!!

2008-04-11T19:51:00.000-07:00

Today was Fabolous.

The only thing bad about it is that I am the most burnt I have ever been in my LIFE!

No joke. I would take a picture but it would scare you.

~*Highlights of the day*~

-Make a Scene (Sarah, MC, Haley and Myself) being all together.

-Me, Ben, and MC being together (have to come up with a name for us...)

-Getting a FREE new energy drink made by vitamen water! not only was it delicious, but the can was hilarious.

-Getting in the water for the first ime in 2008!

-Laughing til I can't breathe.

-Being with some of my favorite people, at my favorite place in the world.

I am a published author.

2008-04-10T20:23:00.000-07:00

Well i took a creative writing last semester and my teacher submitted one of my short stories to CFCC liteary journal called portals. They publish it once a year and theres a very limited space for students to be published.
well my short story was picked :)
The funny thing is, is that I had no copy to show anyone cuz I threw out my hard copy and deleted it from the computer cuz I didnt think they were actually gonna pick it. I got a copy of the book today and im not gonna lie, its a really cool feeling seeing your name next to your story in a real book.

Truth or Dare???

2008-04-08T12:06:00.000-07:00

Last night was AMAZING!!! Me and Sarbear spent the night at Haleys house :) did I say how amazing it was??? Tyler hung out with us for a little bit too! I don't think I ever stopped laughing. We played such a funny game of truth or dare. The funniest part was we got sarah to roll down the driveway... but none of us knew there was a puddle at the very end and she rolled right into it!!! I am laughing thinking about it. We ate an entire thing of cookie dough, peanut butter m and ms, and gummy worms. Could we be anymore girly??? Oh and did anyone know that tyler klee can sing??? cuz he has a really good voice. Last night was def a night to remember :)

OH and thank you everyone for praying for MaryCatherine. She is basically completely better :)

Pray

2008-04-06T21:19:00.001-07:00

Please please please be praying for my best friend in the World marycatherine smith. She is having alot of issues right now with her bladder and her kidney and might need some surgery done. This wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't for the fact that shes pregnant and that causes even more complications. She is in ALOT of pain so please just pray that God will put His hand upon her and heal her.

Thanks everyone

<3

I am addicted to blogging

2008-04-02T21:25:00.001-07:00

SO I know I know. I went a little bit emo in the last blog. I was just upset because one of my friends was participating in one of the things on the list in my last blog.
and just to clarify I didn't mean that I have become excepting to any of those things its just not at all shocking to hear about them anymore and that is what makes me sad...

ANYWAYS on a happier note.... tonight was super fun! It involved cinnamon, broomsticks, laughter, friends, LOC losing at baggo, pizza, a very scarey incident involving sarbear, and the greatest comeback of ERS ever.

Production is 43 days, 18 hours, 25 minutes and 40 seconds until Friday, May 16, 2008

Summer is 33 days, 23 hours, 24 minutes and 41 seconds until Wednesday, May 7, 2008

MY generation.

2008-04-01T20:28:00.000-07:00

I am 18 years old.
If anyone would've told me in May 2006, when I was 16, how much my world would change I never would have believed them.

I never would believe that I know multiple girls 18 or younger that are pregnant. I never would believe that I know girls who have had abortions. I never would believe that I know people with STD's. I never would believe that I know girls who had and have struggled with eating disorders. I never would believe that I know guys that take steroids. I never would believe that I know people who are gay, straight, and bi. I never would believe that I would know drug dealers. I never would believe that I would know people who smoke pot all day. I never would believe that I would know people who drink every night. I never would believe that I know people who do herione, coicane, ecstasy, and acid on a regular basis. I never would believe that I know people who have been in and out of jail. I never would believe that I know people who have beaten other people up so bad that they put them into the hospital. I never would believe that I know people who have tried to commit sucidie. I never would believe that I know people who have cut and harmed themselves. I never would believe that I know people who have overdosed. I never would believe that I know people who have commited armed robbery. I never would believe that I know people who have had mutiple DUI's. I never would believe that I know 16 year old's that smoke 2 packs of camel lights a day. I never would believe that I would know "sold-out" christians who completely turn there backs on God.
I never would believe that I would be so numb to it all by the time I reached 18.

I hate the fact that I hear about someone I am friends with, or someone I used to be friends with, dealing with one of these issues and it hardly fazes me.

But THESE are the issues that MY generation faces on a DAILY BASIS.

I read somewhere that when parents send their kids to school, its like they are sending them into the middle of a war. They should be praying the whole time that there kids come back alive.
I couldn't agree more.
Everyone that I am talking about in the issues I just mentioned are between the ages of 16-23. MY generation is surrounded by this. And I know that I am not the only one feeling pressured and confused.

If MY generation is going to change the world like everyone says... then we need to be praying like we never have before. Because the world that we face at such a young age is a dark one that needs our God more then ever.

All you need is LOVE.

2008-03-27T20:40:00.000-07:00

I am like a falling star who has finally found her place next to another in a lovely constellation, where we will sparkle in the heavens forever.
~Amy Tan~

Love and kindness are never wasted. They always make a difference. They bless the one who receives them, and they bless you, the giver.
~Barbara De Angelis~

Love is patient, love is kind.It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
~I Corinthians 13:4-8~

We love to know that we are not alone.
~C.S. Lewis~

You call it madness, but I call it love.
~Don Byas~

Would you believe me if I told you, That I'm surfacing for just one thieving moment...
to steal your heart.
Would you believe me if I told you, That fairy tales come true...
when I'm with you.
~Lovedrug~

There is no remedy for love but to love more.
~Henry David Thoreau~

If I know what love is, it is because of you.
~Herman Hesse~

I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge -- myth is more potent than history -- dreams are more powerful than facts -- hope always triumphs over experience -- laughter is the cure for grief -- love is stronger than death.
~Robert Fulghum~

I love you Not only for what you are But for what I am When I am with you
~Roy Croft~

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
~Moulin Rouge~

My Grandpa.

2008-02-19T18:43:00.000-08:00

My Grandpa left us on Thursday night... about 2 hours before valentines day was over. I was chaperoning the company girls that night because we were leaving for Nashville the next day. Well after that I really did not want to go. But I am so happy I did. I had a really fun time there. Even though I was an emotional rollercoaster the entire time, I grew closer to my girls, my fellow staff members, and the moms. I laughed alot and got to dance and teach dance. And I also got to see my lovely Misha, who i only get to see a couple of times a year.

I love my grandpa very very much. He was amazing and I know that I will see him again.

Amazing Weekend!

2008-02-04T19:05:00.000-08:00

I had the greatest weekend ever!!!
Saturday Hannah Jarman was celebrating her 14th birthday and i was invited :) anyways she had the genius idea of having a scavenger hunt in the mall. So fun. My team was me, Sarah Jarman, Will Lee, and Matt Forestner... lets just say we beasted it! Sarah Had to take a picture in the boys bathroom and I had to kiss some random guy on the cheek. We also had to find emo kids and sing to them a happy song... haha it was crazy fun.
Sunday was superbowl!!!!! I was going hardcore for the giants who I was sure was gonna loose. Anyways we party at tylers with him, haley, matt, sarah, ben, mc, haleys sis and marcus. it was so so so so so fun. not only were the people great but we had a ton of food! haha. AND THE GIANTS WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had an amazing time.... life is so great!

My First Blog yo.

2008-02-01T16:22:00.000-08:00

Boredom makes people do crazy things…. for instance, starting blogs. I use to blog forever ago when xanga was the big thing… then myspace took over and I havent written a blog since. Well ill give this a try and see how I like it. maybe i’ll like it so much i can become a professional blogger and make tons of money. Ill be the bill gates of blogging. word.

Now I am Just waiting for Mary Catherine (one of my most favorite people in this world) to comeover and bring me out of this boredom. She has that effect on me.